- You’ve got a bloom.
- Do you say?
- Yes, I say. You used to be in an off mood.
- Off?
- That’s right, you were off.
- Yes I was turned off. By life, by habit, by responsibility, by relationships.
- Relationships?
- Yes I don’t know how to connect with people, I’ve got a problem with this.
- And now what’s changed?
- Nothing.
- Nothing? You have just flipped the on switch?
- Yeah, I just flip the on switch.
- Come on, don’t play with me.
- Yes, I flip the on switch and saw relationships of convenience, false interest, envy, resentment, moments expected so expected that never came. And I breathed.
- Breathed.
- Yes, I breathed and everything became clear. I can’t chase the shadows because shadows will never chase me.
- The shadows?
- Have you understood. It’s useless chasing uninterested people. Relationships can’t be unilateral. When they are unilateral they turn you off.
- But what’s all this concern with the fact that you don’t know how to connect with people?
- Because it’s also my fault.
- Your fault?
- Yes my fault, I can’t manage relationships. When things go wrong the blame is never one-sided right?
- Right.
- I mean, I knew, deep down, they didn’t care about me. But I never had the balls to face them. I wept on them hoping that sooner or later… I mean I was the kind of person I’ve always hated: the victim.
- And then, how did you turn on?
- I told you, I breathed. I stopped thinking and I realized that I am my lighthouse. I am my light at the end of the tunnel.
- You are.
- I am, but I’ve only just realize it.
- And now what will you do?
- I will try to enlighten my life.
Dedicated to all of you, I hope you might find your light and illuminate the world.
Merry Christmas
Graphic Design: Silvia Blazina
