{"id":14620,"date":"2016-12-23T10:58:17","date_gmt":"2016-12-23T09:58:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/?p=14620"},"modified":"2017-04-04T16:27:45","modified_gmt":"2017-04-04T14:27:45","slug":"i-saw-the-light-i-was-the-light","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/i-saw-the-light-i-was-the-light\/","title":{"rendered":"I SAW THE LIGHT.  I WAS THE LIGHT."},"content":{"rendered":"<ul>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">You\u2019ve got a bloom<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Do you say?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Yes, I say. You used to be in an \u00a0off \u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">mood<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Off?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">That&#8217;s right, <\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">you were<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> off.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Yes I was turned off. By life, by habit, by responsibility, by relationships.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Relationships?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Yes I don\u2019t know how to <\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">connect<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> with people, <\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I\u2019ve got<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> a problem with this.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">And now what\u2019s changed?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Nothing.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Nothing? You have just <\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">flipped the on switch<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Yeah, I just flip the on switch.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Come on, don\u2019t play with me.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Yes, I flip the on switch and saw relationships of convenience, false interest, envy, resentment, moments expected so expected that never came. And I breathed.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Breathed.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Yes, I breathed and everything became clear. I can\u2019t chase the shadows because shadows will never chase me.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The shadows?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Have you understood. It&#8217;s useless chasing uninterested people. Relationships can\u2019t be unilateral. When they are unilateral they turn you off.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But what\u2019s all this concern with the fact that you don\u2019t know how to connect with people?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Because it&#8217;s also my fault.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Your fault?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Yes my fault, I can\u2019t manage relationships. When things go wrong the blame is never one-sided right?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Right.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I mean, I knew, deep down, they didn\u2019t care about me. But I never had the balls to face them. I wept on them hoping that sooner or later&#8230; I mean I was the kind of person I&#8217;ve always hated: the victim.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">And then, how did you turn on?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I told you, I breathed. I stopped thinking and I realized that I am my lighthouse. I am my light at the end of the tunnel.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">You are.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I am, but <\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I\u2019ve only \u00a0just realize it.<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">And now what will you do?<\/span><\/li>\n<li><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I will try to enlighten my life.<\/span><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<h5 style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Dedicated to all of you, <\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I hope you might find<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> your light and illuminate the world.<\/span><\/h5>\n<h4 style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Merry Christmas<\/span><\/h4>\n<p><em>Graphic Design: Silvia Blazina<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>You\u2019ve got a bloom. Do you say? Yes, I say. You used to be in an \u00a0off \u00a0mood. Off? That&#8217;s right, you were off&#8230;.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":14621,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[916],"tags":[1370,1339],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14620"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=14620"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14620\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15301,"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14620\/revisions\/15301"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/14621"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=14620"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=14620"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/test.theeatculture.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=14620"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}